I'm Ready...Or Am I?

The past week or so has had me on a whirlwind. Work is absolutely CRAZY! We're doing our yearly store reset and I've been preparing for an inventory that is tomorrow. I've managed to squeeze in time to run and its been cool. I took a couple of days off because Monday when I ran, my shin started bothering me really bad. I went out this morning and had a pain free run. The weather couldn't have been better and with me not having to go to work until late, I could take my time and soak it all in.
Lately I've been back and fourth with the thought of hitting the dating scene. While running I pondered it some more. With friends going through divorce and breakups and others in relationship bliss, I wonder is it my time. I have grown accustom to my duvet keeping me warm at night, waking up at 5am to go run and not have anyone other than myself hindering me, and discussing relationships with my homeboys when I crave the debate. When I seek out a relationship of course physical plays a role, not a Grammy award winning part, but something more along the lines of supporting actor. I've grown to learn that the nice body somewhere along the line sucks up the mind's brain cells and mama's old warning of "everything that looks good, aint good" holds tried and true. Also I've come to find that the finest, most successful man can have the BIGGEST insecurities. I strive more for what you can bring to the table. God forbid anything go wrong in my world and I don't have a partner that can support me physically or financially. If the tables were turned I'd most definitely oblige. I am also very particular of the men that B is around. Every male figure in his life possesses exemplary characteristics so I would not expect any less from a mate.
I love love. I love the affection and spontaneity that goes along with it all. I can take the good with the bad but I question myself of my uncertainties. If this is something I want I should be 100% sure right?

Couch Potato & Table Dance

It was a cold, dreary, rainy Fall day but thank God it's to an end. This week has certainly been stressful and I'm glad tomorrow I finally get to see an off day! My plans for the weekend....lay around all day in my favorite Juicy Couture sweatshirt and REST. Well, I checked out a couple of books out from the library earlier this week so I'll attempt to read them both as opposed to letting them hold down my duvet. No running, no work, no nothing, nada. I'll resume training on Sunday morning but please believe I am sore with every step I take. But not as sore as this chick!

Win 1 for the Terrain

This morning I set out at 5:30 fueled with motivation. I mentally mapped out my path last night so off I went. I set my iPod workout to a 5K run just to see if my path would measure up. I learned about .50 km of the way that there is a HUGE difference in treadmill v. terrain. So I pressed on adjusting myself and deciding this was going to be a jog/walk morning. I didn't let that sike me out but as I continued running I realized I had made a horrible decision on my path, a lot of grass. I should have mapped it out a little earlier. Needless to say it wasn't smooth sailing. Once I got through my neighborhood I opted for the running trail in the park which should have been my first choice. I finished off my 3 miles there in about 50 mins running at an average 8:21 min/km. My spirits were down the whole jog/walk but I will continue to train. I felt absolutely defeat....by nature! I evaluated this morning as I finished my run

• I'm back to baby steps. The ease I worked up on the treadmill months ago is going to have to now be applied to the pavement
• I have to work on my breathing b/c I am getting winded too quick
• I have 12 weeks, calm down....

Day 3

....Yes I'm still running.....The fire hasn't turned into a flame just yet. Tomorrow morning, bright and early, I am going to tackle the pavement. Last week I set my Nike+ to a 12 week 5K training program and tomorrow it has me set for a goal of 4 miles. Yesterday I exceeded the 3 mile goal it set by .52. I'm interested to compare the tread v. the pavement. Of course the pavement is going to help me push harder but how much? My doctor appointment is set for next Wednesday and I've found a Toys for Tots run in the early part of December I would like to participate in. Once I send the entry form in(and pay the $10 reg. fee) that will seal the deal. My throat has been scratchy and dry the past couple of days and work has me EXTRA stressed so I'm calling it a night because that combination makes for a horrible cold if I let it.

"Why Must I Cry"

This is a HILARIOUS video!!! I feel Reh Dogg's as I cry laughing at this!!! Please check out YouTube for more laughter entertainment

Mission 13.1

Over the past few days I've been doing a little research on marathon training. I'm excited and focused! I've set in my mind that this is something I can totally accomplish. I've decided to participate in a local 5k in January and I've sent out inquires about volunteering at a couple of others at the end of this year. I've also taken the past few days off from working out and honestly it's killing me. Running the treadmill is my release but I decided to go hard on Sunday. My boss unfortunately felt my wrath this morning on conference call but he deserved it...I'm fortunate to have a beautiful park and a trail literally outside my front door so once I decide to run the pavement I'm set. I'm still eating right and remain sugar free. I got a good recommendation for a general practitioner so my next step is a visit to the doctor :(

Hump Day Randomness

Thank God it's Wednesday and I was thinking it:

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"That One"....Really?
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Was I the only one fighting sleep while watching that debate....yawn
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Can one really be in love with a phone?
Loving the BB Curve!!!
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I want to run a Half Marathon in March
Can I really do this?
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Did I really just spend $90 on groceries...
@ WAL-MART?
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It's time to invest in a passport,
because when I take a vacay it's gonna be NO joke!
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Seriously....Can I run 13.1 miles in under 7hrs?!?!?!?!?!?!

I really want to do the marathon and I'm determined to start training for it. Time to get off the treadmill and on the pavement! I need serious advice so I am open to it all! HELP(before I regain my sanity)!!! I'll keep everyone posted and keep me in your prayers!

What A Difference....

Last week I upgraded my phone, to the BB Curve, and as I was transferring information I discovered this gave me the opportunity to delete some numbers that I rarely or NEVER use. As I scroll through my phone with the confused look on my face of, "who is... and what the...", I realized truly what a difference a day makes. At the beginning of the year I was out partying every Friday and Saturday night and now I opt for quiet nights to myself with a glass of wine. I had an array of guy's numbers. Now I have a zero tolerance policy which is why my phone doesn't ring as often. It's funny that it's okay to sit up in my house with no plans but when I suggest a movie and dinner I get, "I'll get back with you". Ummm hmmm. I've focused on me and now I'm 10 pounds lighter. Only bad thing going right now is my job which sucks major _____(you be the judge). Selling supplements REALLY shouldn't be this stressful. I'm thankful for the people that are in my life both directly and indirectly, 2 miles or 1,000 miles away. I'm happy when they're happy. I'm blessed for every person that I have met during my "change" because I feel they are placed here for my new destiny. The people that continue to stick around I know are there for the continued long haul. Day by day life has gotten better and better and I'm happy as it occurs♥

***BTW****I got a new BB PIN( 207BDOA2)

Go, Go, Gadget

Technology never ceases to amaze me. I am a gadget girl so a few days ago I decided to pick up a Nike+iPod that I had been eye-balling to add to my workout. Luckily my homeboy works where I was able to get a hookup so it eased my mind debating over the $30 contraption. Especially wondering if it was really worth it. I've finally gotten back into my workout after a hectic week and I was impressed.

You can set your workouts by time, distance, or calories. The lady talks throughout the workout to update progress. You can even set a "Power Song" and Lord knows I need that some mornings. Once the workout is complete it gives you the ability to sync it on iTunes and the info is sent to Nike.com just in case you want to set a goal or keep track of progress. All this technology is only compatible with an iPod Nano and Nike+ shoes but I got the hook up on those too ;D

Dad

This is the picture of a man who was on cloud 109. I went home this weekend for my great uncle's funeral as well as my aunt's retirement party. Over the past few years my dad and I haven't been the best of friends but this weekend was different. I go home as often as I can but when I'm there I usually stay with aunts or my cousin. This time around B and I stayed with my dad, partly because my sister-in-law was there and she understands the riff between me and my dad. My dad literally glowed the entire weekend while having us there. We had a great time at the party and the next day left me wondering. Wondering if after everyone was gone would the awkwardness resume. To much surprise, it was a great day. A blessed day. A day that marked the beginning. Life is extremely too short and I think after so may failed attempts of trying to make our relationship work, this time around is not a fluke. We watched football, talked about some family business where my brother was at one time the go between, and I fixed his screen saver because in spite of, I've always been my dad's personal Geek Squad. He even lured Brandon outside away from Cartoon Network.

As the day wound down I was getting ready to head home. It was hard to say goodbye because I knew it was even harder for my dad to see us leave. So as Brandon and I sit in the car saying our goodbye's, my dad tells me to call and let him know I made it home safely(something he has NEVER suggested). As I take the 50 mile drive back home I reflect on the weekend. Truly what a difference a day makes. I feel we came to a resolution without hanging the past over or heads or even saying sorry. Yes the funeral was a somber moment but I had a wonderful weekend amongst so much love and it all really topped off the happiness I have been experiencing the past few months. Once I got home and settled I called my dad to let him know we'd made it. It wasn't a long conversation but he told me to keep in touch. I will daddy, I will.

Summer Finale

Today was an interesting week 3 of football but I enjoyed it. I've even been thinking about trying my hand at a little fantasy football before it's too late in the season. The Cowboys and Packers are playing now and I would personally rather stand in a corner and watch paint dry as I don't care for either team. Here's my thoughts on today's games:

Chiefs v Falcons
I'm still stunned by the dirty birds. 38-14. Really?
That Roddy White catch for a 70-yard run was awesome!
Might have to make the 2hr drive to the Dome and catch a game....

Miami v New England
Ronnie Brown, Ronnie Brown, Ronnie Brown
Let's remember where he came from
War Eagle!!!!!!

Tampa Bay v Chicago
My team pulled through with an OT win!
That's why they're NFC South champs ;D
Saints v Broncos
Love the Saints and Drew Breezy!!!
Gramatica how do you miss 2 field goals?!
Really not happy Denver is 3-0

Washington v Arizona
Arizona got their first "L" compliments of the Skins!
And another Auburn Tiger led his team to victory

I enjoyed my day of flipping back and forth through channels but I'm a little sad to know that when I wake up tomorrow morning in will be Fall. Summer's over *sigh*

Chillaxin

Today I contributed nothing to society which for me was great. I had an off day and a quiet household so I took all the advantage.

• I challenged myself on the treadmill this morning and pushed myself through a new discipline. Yay me!
• I watched a little television and read the newest issue of "Women's Health".
• Downloaded Raphael Saadiq's latest CD

See, pointless, uneventful happenings. My phone hasn't rung all day....wonderful! I also tried my best to pimp my brother into taking me to the Redskins/Giants game during my trip to DMV for Thanksgiving. His response:

Football game n the winter n DC....heck no.

Wizards game in November...heck ya

He's such a punk. Football isn't football if it's not in the cold! And for that being my first live NFL experience, what better game than the Skins v. Giants?! I already know that his text was a guaranteed no so I shoot my favorite cousin a text and he gave me all the cons, mainly cold weather, but said he'd take me. SCORE! For the fun of it I checked the Wizards schedule and what do we have here....? Wizards vs. Hawks, November 29th. I'm pushing for courtside ;D Latta!

"I Gotta Get Fly For School"

I'm winding down for the night and I here this from the bathroom door:

"I gotta get fly for school!"

Why at 8 years old do you have to get "fly" for school?! Especially when you wear a uniform! I'm not ready for this"lil girl" era and I already know that's what it's the beginning of. Last week I was told, "this girl in class keeps staring at me". I tackled that one well while gripping the steering wheel. Then earlier in the week I was randomly told about two new girls in the class. At any rate I documented what it takes to get fly in Brandon Mooney's world. Gotta make em' "sea sick" with the waves I guess...

LAWD!

From Afar

Have you ever admired someone from afar and wanted to tell them? I have guy friends who's opinions I've sought on the matter and 1/2 say don't say anything and the other 1/2 say they like aggressive women which leaves me confused. But women are the complicated ones...hmph. So what is it fellas?!
I am the type of girl that lives life for the moment so if I say it, it's done with no regrets. My theory is the other person would never know unless you speak your mind and say so. You never know what that person may be feeling or thinking and not express. I think we've all debated, "what if he/she has someone?", "what if they're not feeling me like that?", "what if they don't want the same thing I want?". What if, what if, what if.... Now there was a time when I was overly aggressive and I had to step back and realize you can never force yourself on a person. At one time I had a couple of really great guys come my way and didn't react and missed out. I guess my aggressiveness surfaced from missing out on those opportunities but I had to tone that down. But as I got older I lived and learned and came to realize that what's meant to be will be.
On the other end of the totem pole, I have a friend who is so against a woman approaching a guy. He says the guy should be the hunter and that when a woman approaches a guy she comes across as easy. Needless to say we've had countless debates on the subject matter. But it is said that men like a chase right? I'm just trying to put love and life into perspective. I wonder will I ever not be so selfish and stop basking in my own self happiness in order to experience the ins and outs of love? If I find that David Oliver-esque guy,or D.O. himself(lol), then sure. Because we all know I think highly of a brother. ;D

If you admire somebody You should gone head, tell em
People never get the flowers While they can still smell em
"Big Brother"Kanye West

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Love the life you live, live the life you love
~Bob Marley

vacay .

I'm a travel whore and I LOVE to stay on the go. Everybody's been been asking what's wrong with me because I've been pretty still this Summer. I don't like traveling alone but I may have too. As much as possible I like to invite the homies but there are schedule conflicts with work, timing, finances, all that good stuff. I have a homeboy I could call who's always down to ride when he's not on call at work but I have to sign a waiver not to take pictures of him because he doesn't want to end up, "all over MySpace or Facebook" . And even still I'm limited to a two shot minimum of myself. Two shots the whole weekend??? Come on!!!!! Next to being a travel whore, I'm a photo whore....lol. Pictures document a lifetime of memories and how dare I get a limit....gggrrr. My best chica is in the "A" this weekend topping off her bday.

So I'm in search of the perfect travel friend(lol). Somebody who loves sun and sand and is aware that tan lines are not an option . A person who can listen to the calm waves all day and not speak a word. A being who's always down to roll time wise and financially. Wouldn't that be in the perfect world?! My body and mind are screaming for some serious R&R right now. My first pick is the beach, anybody's beach, hurricane season and all. I wanted to shed a tear a few Sunday's ago when my auntie asked me had I been back to the beach. I haven't been since May and last year this time I was 4 or 5 trips deep. My Summer glow is fading and I refuse to let Fall get the best of me. My next choice would be DC or New York. I'm a country girl who loves the public transportation and the fast pace. I feel like I fit in so well(lol). They are also two of my favorite major cities. My third choice would be the islands or Europe. Its been painstakingly slow at work so this month would be the perfect time. October is a blackout month but you can best believe if I get an opportunity then I'm going to take it! I guess until I find that perfect travel companion, I'll settle for a city I've already ventured to were photos aren't necessary and I can afford to travel alone, just enjoying the city with a new eye. I would just enjoy the rest and relaxation that I so desperately need :(

I Just Want My Fuze

I've been over the rising price of gas ever since it started rising. I fill up and deal with the price later. After all, I do have to get B to school, go to work, etc. So yesterday afternoon I was in the gas station amongst the panic(Ike Spike)of $4 a gallon gas. I was in line to purchase a Fuze. I got gas earlier in the week because I needed it with no idea T.G.I.F was gonna be like this. So the attendant and owner of the store was telling this guy that he had to prepay for his gas because he had been dealing with drive offs. The guy gives his credit card and tells the attendant he doesn't know how much he wants but he would leave his credit card there. If I'm on half a tank I can pretty much guess how much it will take to top me off and this guy in his Silverado at half a tank had no earthly idea how much he needed. *blank stare* I just want my Fuze...The attendant then says he has to leave his driver's license along with the credit card. Which from his perspective I can understand because there may not have been 2 cents on the card. So the guys mumbles, "I'm not a thug, I just want some gas. My credit card is worth more than my damn license" You're not a THUG? That could be translated in so many ways but only one way in the gas station with a barber shop on one side and adjacent to a "Wings & Thangs" eatery. Yea. The man that was behind me made a comment that I guess was suppose to get my sista gul, "ooohhh no he didn't" side out. Again, I don't rant and rave about gas prices, I just fill up AND I just want my Fuze... So he throws the driver's license on the counter and heads out the door. Now, as a person who works in retail nothing urks me more than having someone toss a card or place their money on the counter. Especially when I have my hand out as the attendant did. So once the man walks out the door all the people who were agitated by the, "I'm not a thug" comment begin their rants. The attendant starts talking about all his drive offs. Someone else talks about Governor Riley said this on the news, behind me someone echos "Bush needs to be shame...", Obama this, McCain that. Uuuhhhhggggggg!!!! I just want my Fuze...So FINALLY it's my turn and I pay for my drink. As I walk out the door the man is still pumping and I wonder, "why didn't he just swipe at the pump?!"

F-A-B-O

The party was wonderful despite my reservations. I turned on the laid back fab and headed out the door. The location was great and the food was awesome. I love small quaint hideaways which The Olive Room was. My girl looked beautiful as always. M.A.C did a bangin job on her makeup! The birthday girl even got serenaded by a stranger who offered to buy all of us dinner there next month. I love working the damsel(lol)! I had a Summer salad and a glass of white Zin. I am so proud of myself for sticking to this diet thing. I'm getting so fabulous so quickly turns out no "sucking in" was needed. Josh, our waiter, tried his best to tempt us with dessert but he was unsuccessful. He was a great waiter though and I tipped him on top of his already added gratuity.

After dinner Chandi decided she wanted to make a loop through The Boardroom, our usual hangout. So I followed her there and as soon as we opened the door the hater stares commenced. I worked my little black number and she worked her little blue number. Hi Haters!!! Some women have yet to learn that the stares only heighten the cockiness. Of course the regulars wanted to know what had us out and about all dressed up. So the occasion won Chandi a glass of wine and me an offer that I passed on. I was ready to tap out after that first glass at the restaurant! The fabulousness of it all is now on simmer as my day winds down. People are around here panicking about gas as it is now $4 a gallon. Tonight I have a date with me and my thoughts♥

~The Bday Girl~
~The Gift I Gave~

We Gonna Party Like It's Your Birthday

This month is the month of birthday's for a lot of my friend's. I BB'd my sister-in-law's nephew yesterday. I just left a belated birthday message for a friend apologizing for being a complete ass for forgetting hers yesterday. Tonight I've been summonsed to dinner for another bestie. This afternoon I'm honestly not in the mood to do makeup, do hair, suck this in, push that out. My spirit is there simply because we haven't hung out in a minute but my body is screaming "rest". I really want to just chill with my thoughts. I love my girl to pieces so of course I'm going. Plus she hung with me for my birthday a couple of months ago.

I'm also the sentimental gift giver and I can't wait to see her face when she gets her gift. She's such a diva and I know she'll love it! Last year I put together a scrapbook chronicling our Summer. It didn't come out the way I thought it would but she loved it. And what was suppose to be a huge all girl get-a-way ended up being a road trip with just the two of us having a ball in Panama City.
So I'm preparing myself mentally, I guess I need to go get ready...Later!

Yada, Yada

This morning I was on the treadmill and my BlackBerry pings. So before I go hard I decide to see who it was. As I look at my Yahoo and see the ID, "Don't You Know" by Jeezy plays over my iPod. "I don't know you, I don't know you....." rings out. Only I know this is a random dude I haven't spoken to in months and Sunday's. Uuggghhh!
Him:So u act like u don't know nobody anymore
Here we go...
Me: ? Who's this.....
I love to play the "who's this" game when there's an appropriate time for it to be played.
Him: Is this Eb Mooney?
Wait a minute...I ask the questions around here. Especially when the smiley face isn't lit up indicating you're on my list.
Me:Yes
Him: Ok then. It's Hollywood....
Blah, blah, smart ass comment, and more blah.
Him:So u have a bad problem of not speaking
Hhhmmm....I know the exact instance he is speaking of because he was in Wal-Mart with his chick. His "change my status to married on Facebook when I'm really not" girlfriend(that kinda mess is hilarious to me). Wifey. Me and this guy have no romantic history but he was at one time trying to holla. I wasn't into him like that but he was cool to hold conversations with. Over the phone cause in person he was an octopus and it wasn't that type of party for me. Then pops up girlfriend, sorry wifey, who was cool with octopus man so be happy and don't worry how E is doing on any level.I don't know homegirl from Adam so normally when I see a guy with his girl, unless I know her, I don't speak. Keeps down the eye rolling and hip shifts. I did however smile at him which in my book says hello enough without words. Plus, he didn't exactly go out of his way to say hello or pull me over for an intro. You're in romantic bliss...why let Eb ruin it for you?! Up until this morning I hadn't communicated with him in almost a year. If you've read my previous post you'll realize I have no problem letting go. I'm not at all trippin about him and his chick but his intentions for my well being were in the wrong pocket.

And in unrelated news....

Sunday Serena nailed her 3rd U.S. Open! It was an awesome meet to watch after all the football openers so congrats Serena!

Ping me!

Bored out of my mind @ work :( HELP BB users! Lol 24444043

Dear Momma

My mom taught me so much through the years and even at 32, I wish she was here to continue her teachings. The unconditional love that she gave to me is the same love I give to B. As a single mother raising a son, I know my journey is only beginning but even with facing the road ahead I move forward with the strength that was given to me by her. Also the parental advice.
I was the baby in the family, my brother and I being ten years apart. My dad was in the Army but by the time I was born they were settled. I remember it being me, my mom, and my brother while my dad was stationed in Korea. At that age I knew nothing about maintaining a household and bills, etc. My mom hadn't worked at that point for four or five years. All I remember is having the best from JCPenny for back to school, birthdays were awesome, and receiving everything I asked Santa for for Christmas. I look back now and realize that it took strength to raise two kids and maintain a household for the years she did. She truly held it down. As I grew up my mother would remind me of those days and tell me stories of when she was growing up because of her 5 siblings she was the oldest. Again she exemplified her strength as did my grandmother having to raise six children alone.I only pray B remembers these days because they make you an even better parent.
As I've grown into an adult and became a mother my strength continues to grow day by day. All I know is how to walk by faith and continually trust in God. Some may mistake it for being nonchalant but why worry about the circumstance you can't control? I've been near eviction, lights almost off, feeding me and a child with my last $5. Notice I used words like near and almost because God's grace got me what I needed. So I live life not worrying how many friends I have but cherishing the few true friendships I have. I'm not obsessed with my looks. I wasn't born flawless and my goal to tone is for personal gratification, not vanity. I maintain my inner beauty more than my outer. I don't obsess over being in a relationship. There are days that I do hate being alone and would love the affection, but I love the days I have time to myself. The boyfriend will come one day complete with happiness, romance, and respect. I am not a kept woman or high maintenance but like I stated earlier, I got it all as a child. I get it now on my own, God knows his child is grade A and doesn't deserve trife, misery, and disrespect. Plus I want someone that I can laugh with and lay around in bed all day and it not be about sex. I take advantage of every day I wake and able to add a chronicle to my life. As much as I miss my mother, I am happy to know I can walk with my head high possessing her beauty and strength. I am so fearless!
~Love is, above all, the gift of oneself~

Ode to Oliver♥

Yes he's absolutely gorgeous with that alluring smile, body of a Greek God and DIMPLES! He recently proved to be one of the best athletes in the world by winning a medal in the Men's 100m hurdles at the Olympics. He's not a household name like Kobe Bryant, Reggie Bush, or Lebron James. But thank God I got off work early and had a little interest in what was going on at the Olympics because that night I discovered my new athletic heartthrob David Oliver.Yes, he has oust Dwayne Wade! Hail to "The King"! I like track and field, thought about participating in high school, but I honestly don't follow it like football. So naturally after discovering this athlete I went to my favorite investigating spot...Wikipedia! Your somebody when you have a Wikipedia article....come on. Read an article here, an article there, and then ran across the link for his blog. This blog amazes me because it is SO descriptive. It's like missing your favorite TV show for a few episodes and being able to pick right back up on it. I felt like I was front row center in Beijing. You learn that Paris is his favorite European city, how he prepares for a race, he lives for the Miami Dolphins and fantasy football,
he loves his Blackberry as many BB owners do, and that "you will never hear of D.O. having missed meal cramps". What you also unconsciously learn is that this is an amazing human being! He has a huge love for kids, he appreciates his fans, and his career path is shadowing that of his mom. I love reading the blog of this fearless man getting to know him more day by day. Now if we could only get our guy to remember to pull the digital camera out. :) Unlike a lot of our black athletes, his career isn't filled with drug charges, DUI's, or baby momma drama. Google him baby! Men(no homo,lol) and women admire him alike. This man of great character(and I'm certain integrity) is who we should encourage our younger generation to look up to. Continue your fab David and God bless♥

T.G.I.FINALLY!

Today was nothing short of a great day. Work went smoothly and I'm finally off! B's godfather called me today and wanted him to visit for the weekend so it's even better to come home to peace and quiet. I ran into an old flame today who left for Korea a year ago. It was good to see him and know that he's doing okay but I wasn't as excited as I guess I shoulda been. We haven't communicated in any way since he's been gone. "I just got back yesterday." How convenient for me. "I'm having a party tonight at Ikonz." Great.*side eye* Needless to say, I'll be one less on the guest list. I haven't been out anywhere since my birthday back in July and that wasn't even out to a club. Dinner and drinks with friends. I haven't had the desire to go out and see the same faces nor pay the $15-20 cover to do so. There are only a couple of people that can talk me into dressing up and dealing with the hater stare tonight. And no sooner than I type this my bestie BB messengers me.... After coming to the realization we're both tired she gives me this:"Yea but I keep movin shawty...goin to Ikonz, will I see ya there?" Tonight I really think it's gonna be me, sushi, and wine in bed watching movies.

Sugar, Sugar

As I continue on my mission to a leaner and toner body, I have decided to cut down on the sweets. I type this as an impulse shopping bag of peach rings sit on my kitchen counter.
It actually hasn't been as bad as I thought. I've never been an obsessive sugar freak but I have my objects of affection like Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie, soda, and Chick-Fil A sweet tea. OMG! Chick-Fil A sweet tea is the absolute best! But I haven't had one in over a week which is awesome for me because the food court is adjacent to my store. I've opted for water a lot more these past couple of weeks and my skin has reaped the benefits.

I've been doing well with the lifestyle change. I am on day four of my body cleanse, I've been sticking to my workouts, and I'm eating the right things. Limiting not only sugar but salt also, even though I never was one to add table salt to anything. Brandon and I went grocery shopping yesterday and loaded up on fruits and veggies. A lot of easy to prepare breakfast foods so I can grab and go and stay out of the food court in the morning. Chickn Minis are the devil! Of course I had to get B's impulse snacks; Doritos, Lucky Charms, Capri Sun, whole milk for the Lucky Charms. I prefer soy milk and he hates it. I'm also trying to watch the calories and the worst is my Syntha-6 protein post workout. 200 calories per 1 scoop but 23g of protein. I'm bad because I preach about how you take protein for results and not taste and here I am with this high cal stuff. I even ventured out and made a smoothie. Protein, soy milk, mixed berries, flax,yogurt, and ice. It was yummy and filling. I'm really thinking about adding Pilate's to my program.

Below are ladies that inspire:

Allyson Felix

Fergie

And of course who isn't inspired by Beyonce

I'm open to any and all suggestions with help on reaching my goal. :)

u too cute to be stuck up

Social websites are so amusing. I use them mainly to communicate with friends in Iraq and old friends that I don't talk to on a regular basis. And when I say regular basis I mean months and Sundays. My networks of choice: MySpace and Facebook. So one day in a random act of boredom, I decided to try out BlackPlanet. I enjoy meeting new people just as much as the next person but I should have known better. As I stated earlier, I have pages on these sites as a means of keeping in touch. I'm not denouncing finding love over the net but that's not my purpose and I stated that on BP:
"Thanks or viewing my page. I'm here just because...I'm not looking for a man, "friend", or anything of the like so please don't send your phone number or offer a plane ticket, not interested....." Blah, blah, blah. Hit submit and viola!
I don't feel I should have to state to a grown man not to approach me with "hey baby", "what's up boo", "damn sexy", or any of that other foolishness. I've learned that it's a waste of time when you do anyway. A gentleman, an intelligent man knows how to respect a lady and knows how to peek her interest with just the right words. All that other foolery is reminiscent of the man in the club with the body shirt and the gold tooth that insist on a dance or buying you a drink. Not a good look. To me "boo" is a term of endearment and only my man could turn me on with that one.

August 8, 2008 8:23pm
Age:30
Subject: HI BABY
I HAVE SEEN YOU A FEW TIMES OUT AND ABOUT BUT WE'VE NEVER SPOKEN TO EACH OTHER. I ALWAYS WANTED TO GET TO KNOW YOU BUT THE TIMING WAS ALWAYS OFF. BUT NOW IS MY CHANCE TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I THINK YOU ARE SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL TO ME AND I HOPE TO HAVE A LONG FRIENDSHIP WITH YOU AND HOPEFULLY MORE. MY NAME IS KELDRICK AND I HAVE READ YOUR PROFILE AND FOR THE RECORD I AM (FAR) FROM BEING DESPERATE BUT I DEFINETLY WANNA HEAR YOUR VOICE. HIT ME UP AT 334-318-**** . FOR SO LONG I HAVE WAITED FOR MY QUEEN AND I WISH THAT IT WILL BE YOU.

Eyes rolling b/c Keldrick missed the memo

1. As a professional I can't STAND for people to type in all caps....uuuhhh
2. If you've seen me a few times & so desperately long for my companionship how about we say hello, eh?!
3. Didn't I say I wasn't here for romance???

Five days later, after continuous emails my response:
I'm rarely on this site and when I am it's for a second or two. Unfortunately if you are looking for something outside of BP, I'm not interested...sorry.

------ Original note ------
Subject: hello
i have been trying to get in touch with you for the last 3 days because i really wanted to get to know you, if i am wasting my time and yours please let me know! hit me up babygirl !

Did this dude not realize this 2 or 3 days prior?! I try so hard to be nice but when you don't take use of the fundamentals of reading how can I? Telling me how beautiful, sexy, or gorgeous I am is not gonna get you a Fed Ex response. I know my beauty whether it's acknowledged by you or not!
Then we have example #2. Someone over at BP decided to add the IM feature to their network. So belizean_heartthrob thought he'd drop me an IM(or 3):

This IM was sent while you were away:
* hello
* come on now u say u is fearless now dont be scardddd
* say somthing u too cute to be stuck up
"U is..." Really? This is the kind of madness that I must deal with in today's society? The gentlemen of the world must act with a sense of urgency. Don't let your fellow brother continue on with this! I'm starting to believe that chivalry is so, so dead. Oooohhh, an email just came across. Subject: What's up sexy
*sigh*

Must see TV

So a week later my iPod is on sale at Target. I went bright and early to get my $9 price adjustment. I used my iTunes giftcard to load my two fave shows And life is good again.

I was off Wednesday and I caught the new 90210. I'll have to watch a few more episodes but it's okay. The verdicts still out. Well it's 2am and I have to be at work at 930am and I'm planning on getting a workout in. We'll see how much of a success that's gonna be. As you get ready for your day don't forget to "smile with your eyes" and prepare for tonight's episode of ANTM :)
Enjoy your day♥

Crackberry Addict

I've read a few blogs and been on several social sites and I am happy to know that I am not alone in my addiction with the Blackberry. Does RIM know the monster they've created?! Without it I feel like a piece of me is missing(i.e.vital organ). I have a friend who always talks about me and me companion. He says he often wonders would I be able to breathe without it because I'm, "always pecking on that keyboard". If you have one you know the feeling. Me and my bestie BB messenger more than we speak words. It comes in handy in the club(lol). I hardly ever talk on the phone, texting is my communication of choice. I've heard Blackberry's have broken happy homes but my man would be guaranteed a text or two,or three on the daily. Maybe even a few naughties.

I am by no means a "baller" as a lot of my friends think since I own one nor do I have a job that would require me to have a phone as such, I just love technology and since my first one(Nextel BB7520) I know no other phone. I currently have the Pearl but am thinking about upgrading to the Curve. I almost crossed over to the dark side considering other smartphones but I'm too sold on the things my phone can do.Through the years the Blackberry has only gotten better for me. Who cares about Windows when you can listen to XM radio(through my bluetooth), BB and Yahoo messenger, remember bdays, check Facebook, never get lost with Google Maps AND use the phone as a modem. Pure bliss. Then you have cute colorful skins, Dooney&Burke makes a wristlet, and you can change the trackball color when you feel like it....aahh. So when the day comes someone starts a Blackberry anonymous. I'll be there front row center.

Cash Your Checks & Come On...

September 1st...Happy Labor Day(as I labor). Nothing truly eventful has gone on these past few days. Life has been well. I've just been so occupied with work that by the time I get home its a wrap! I'm actually at work now....mad as hell that I'm missing "Gossip Girl" AND "One Tree Hill" season premiers. Hopefully I can catch them on iTunes. Grrr.... Other than football, I'm not a big TV watcher so missing my shows kinda has me feeling "some type of way"(lol). Don't wanna chat much today about muscle mass, the best nitric oxide, multi-vitamins or how to get rid of "alla dis". If you're JLn'(just looking) you gets the gas face today because I'm in hustle mode and its all about the guap today. The beginning of the month is always a busy time for me because its Gold Card week and on top of everything else the "goons" gotta get clean before they go see their P.O. The positive is the moola $! So I deal with that ignorance to make the cash. Yesterday I played nice, customer- friendly manager. I had a customer walk in and I went over and gave my spill. Here was the dialogue:

Me: What brings you in today?

Him: Just looking

Me: Well if you have any questions about anything please feel free....
Him: Thank You
Me: Also while you looking, behind you is a clearance section with some great deals.
Him: Thanks for the commercial....

WTF?! Obviously this asshole has never been in a store with any sort of customer service. I just walked away. I'm a sinner, not a saint so he was about to get a mouth full but it was the Lord's day and that's who I handed him over to. >:)


I'm elated because it is college football season!!!! YAY! I'm a southern belle so all I know is SEC football. My team Auburn pulled out a win over LA-Monroe 34-0 on Saturday! :) The offense sucked this game but that defense.....that defense was a BEAST! I look forward to watching my Tigers play especially during the Iron Bowl(vs Alabama). Its all the state of Alabama knows this time of year! War Eagle!!!!!!!!!!

Selma, Lord, Selma

Last night in my hometown of Selma, AL another African American won the race for mayor of the historic city! In a town that played a big role in the Civil Rights movement, we are finally making progress. But I heard that even during this race there was conflict in what is a predominantly African American town, so let's hope there will be progress. Prior to this mayoral race, an African American held office for two terms. Mayor Perkins defeated Joe Smitherman who held the position for 10, yes ten, terms. He was elected in 1965 just a few months shy of the 1965 voting rights marches. So congrats are in order for Mr. George Evans who will take office in November. If you'd like to check it out, the article can be found here.
This morning I woke up proclaiming today "Me" day! Of course with it being an off day it was also errand day. But it was also payday :) I started the day off at Target because they have a great deal with the 4G iPod nano. You get a $15 iTunes gift card with it for the same price of the player alone.Only downfall is it only comes in silver but I wasn't trippin on the color. Ever since I left my Nano in Florida I've wanted to get another.You already know when I called the hotel housekeeping had no recollection of it's whereabouts...uuummmhhhmmm. I bought a Shuffle a while back to hold me over and it was good for workouts but I told a colleague she could have it. I'm so wonderful! ;D I also found it ironic because I read David Oliver's blog today and he talked about how he had received one at his clinic today...iPod day all around the world!

...Out Came The Sun & Dried Up All The Rain...

This morning I woke up to new named storm Gustav feeling awfully sluggish so I rolled out of bed and had to pop some Hydroxycut Max if I had any plans of working out this morning. Once I finally made it there I actually pushed through better than I thought I would. I came back and took a 9:30 conference call(blah, blah, blah) and got ready for work.
Work was work today. I actually managed to do my weekly paperwork which is a feat for me because anybody who knows me knows I dread paperwork. I'm caught up on everything and mall traffic was slow so I listened to a little XM radio on my Blackberry, visited a few websites and made it till 2:30.
By the time I picked B up from school it was raining again. We came home, did homework,and I caught an episode of Tyra. By 5:30ish the sun came out and I took Napoleon out to do his biz.

Leftover baked lemon-pepper chicken and salad was the meal of choice today. So yes, I'm sitting around full like a fat rat channel surfing. I can't wait until premire week and all the new shows air. Mr. Fwd: called this afternoon but of course I didn't answer and he didn't leave a message. I wonder how long will it take for him to get the hint...?
I am so ready for all the rain to be gone but of course it's that time of year. I'm off tomorrow and after that it's full speed ahead for the rest of the week. I am getting antsy and need a vacay ASAP. October is a blackout month for vacations at work so I need to make moves here soon. I want to go to the beach before it gets too cool and the rain is halting ALL those plans. Tan lines are calling my name!!!!

Fay, Fay Go Away!

This was the scene ALL day today. Horrible! Weather sirens going off, tornado watches, and warnings...grrrr. Despite the weather I went to the workout room and hit the treadmill for 45mins and afterwards, off to work I went. Today was an extra short day for me but it was a surprisingly steady morning. Rain tends to bring the shoppers. After work I picked B up from school with Fay still at her best and heading home I got this convo:

B: Am I going to be 18 before I have a sister?

Me:WTF!!!!(in my head)

Silence...

Me: Why do you have to have a brother or sister?

B: Because...So I can teach them things like to tie their shoes and help them with their homework.

Me:Oh

Now this dialogue threw me for a loop because Brandon hasn't ever asked about siblings or anything of the like. But his heightened interest came and went. Thank God! So around 8:40 tonight I get a text that is labeled as a forward(FWD:).

Fwd:Whats up sexy i kno ive been slow but quicker isnt always beter holla back at me

Mind you I don't know who the text is from because all that came with said text was a number. I'm sure this is some random dude that came in my store and tried to spit game and I scribbled the digits knowing I had NO intention to answer his call. And with the effort that he put into his text, sorry mass forward, I see that he exhibits extra lame qualities. I have zero tolerance. And at that moment THAT'S when I remembered why Brandon doesn't have a sibling(lol).

I Am My Hair

I'm on a true journey to grow longer, healthier hair. When I was about 5 or 6 years old, I had hair down my back. As I got older, momma opted for me to get a perm and a beautician made the mistake of leaving some in. Yep...But even in high school it was chin length sometimes longer when I didn't get in my cut it off phase. I suffer from alopecia and I am so tired of wasting money on the sorry dermatologists in my city that are suppose to be "the bomb"(whatev). They look at my scalp for about 5 sec and "diagnose" what I already know. See, my mom's side of the family suffers from it. My mom, all of her sister's except one, her two brother's, and even my grandmother had it. My brother even has it. I want a more thorough analysis so I've even been researching doctors in Atlanta. In the meantime, I have been Au natural for over a year and have been wearing wigs to give my tresses a rest from heat and styling. So this week I put up the wigs and now I want to try wearing my own hair. It's at an okay length but I am drooling over homegirl here in the picture....So thanks to the downtime at work I have been researching additional supplements that I can use to stimulate blood flow to the scalp and promote growth. I have been using GNC ultra-nourish, Women's Ultra Mega multi-vit, and fish oil for over a year. I take protein after my workout so no problem with deficiency there. I have added flax seed oil, vit E, CoQ10, MSM, and several other supplements. I also use our shampoos and conditioners I find while doing markdowns. Giovanni Tea Tree shampoo and conditioner for .97/each...can't beat it! My fav is anything containing Tea Tree oil because they feel sooooo good on the scalp! I've even gone old school and roll my hair at night because I have a horrible habit of plugging in the curlers in the morning. I found these awesome satin rollers by Hype Hair in Wal-Mart and they work beautifully! I already know my crazy, impatient tail is going to expect results like my inspiration photo in a month or so. I'm going to stick with it because I want my hair length from days of ol'. Sorry India Irie but I AM my hair...

U Gotta Love Me Or Leave Me Alone

So today is "Revelation Day"...You know that day when we claim change, have a spark for a few days, weeks, or months and you go back to same ol, same ol. I am tired ya'll. Sick of the same ol, same ol. Getting tired of my Mr. Wrong's telling me how beautiful I am, and how they would love to get to know me better(the sometime downfall of working retail). It's my own fault I'm feeling "some type of way" because I deal with the shit and don't build the balls to say anything to the ones that I find to be my Mr. Right. I am a firecracker and I must admit that my mother blessed me with, "what comes up comes out" but when I'm dealing with men and relationships I become a deaf mute.
I'm currently dealing with a guy who I've been having relations with for almost a year(maybe longer). Knowing I had feelings for him, I went into it convincing myself he was only going to be a booty call once that's where the relationship went. Now I want more. Not necessarily from him but I now want a relationship. So I've been back and forth with the notion of "The Ultimatum" or just cutting him off completely. I could just walk, wouldn't be hard, I guess I'm just playing with the idea of "What if" and trying to build the nerve of saying something. So as I go on from day to day(some good, some pissy) I hope that my search for happiness in the relatonship department prevails.

I'm A Blogger!

So I'm sitting here...virus on my computer and all...and decided on trying out the blog thing. So here I am :D If the night gets interesting like I think it might I'll be back. By the way, welcome to my world♥