U Gotta Love Me Or Leave Me Alone

So today is "Revelation Day"...You know that day when we claim change, have a spark for a few days, weeks, or months and you go back to same ol, same ol. I am tired ya'll. Sick of the same ol, same ol. Getting tired of my Mr. Wrong's telling me how beautiful I am, and how they would love to get to know me better(the sometime downfall of working retail). It's my own fault I'm feeling "some type of way" because I deal with the shit and don't build the balls to say anything to the ones that I find to be my Mr. Right. I am a firecracker and I must admit that my mother blessed me with, "what comes up comes out" but when I'm dealing with men and relationships I become a deaf mute.
I'm currently dealing with a guy who I've been having relations with for almost a year(maybe longer). Knowing I had feelings for him, I went into it convincing myself he was only going to be a booty call once that's where the relationship went. Now I want more. Not necessarily from him but I now want a relationship. So I've been back and forth with the notion of "The Ultimatum" or just cutting him off completely. I could just walk, wouldn't be hard, I guess I'm just playing with the idea of "What if" and trying to build the nerve of saying something. So as I go on from day to day(some good, some pissy) I hope that my search for happiness in the relatonship department prevails.